Hello
I am a suicidal girl in a stereotypical world. I cut myself, which also makes matters different. I realize that I have problems, which is why I have created this group.

The reason I am suicidal is because of what goes on outside of my house. Of course, home is a haven for school...yet school is a haven for home. Where is there to go? At least I can be here. People verbally abuse me because I wanted to dress a way that was different to eveyrone else. I wouldn't like to say I go under a label...I just wear what I want, usually from thrift stores, sometimes from Hot Topic, and occasionally, if I have time, something I made myself. People stereotype me and think because I dress this way that I am suicidal.

However, I was not that way to begin with. Before everyone started diagramming me the wrong way, I was perfectly fine...just a quiet little cihld who wanted to listen to Evanescence and the Dresden Dolls. But things changed. They were the ones who made me suicidal...the ones who thought I was in the first place. But verbal abuse is painful.

My friends all tell me not to listen to them and not take it literally, and I don't. But just because I don't listen to it doesn't mean I don't hear it. I still know people think this way behind my back and stereotype me and think I am a freak. That is why I cut myself, it depresses me when people look at me the wrong way. Normally I don't care what people think, but it gets out of hand sometimes.

People also ask me why cutting myself makes me feel better. For me, it is complicated. Physical pain heals, like cuts and scratches. Sure, they may still be visible in a month, yet in the shape of a scar, but they don't hurt anymore. But being called a freak all the time doesn't heal. Emotional pain stays with you forever, and cutting yourself at least gives you something to look forward too, as in having the pain heal over.

This is why I created Suicidally Anonymous. It is for anyone who:

is suicidal and would like to share why
was suicidal and would like to share solutions on stopping
or is not suicidal but would just like to support anyone who is and try to get them to stop.

Anyone can join, and I would like support. I would also like to give support to others, because I, myself, am trying to stop too. Being suicidal is a horrible thing and must be stopped, but being alone in the world is the last thing to stop that.

To join, just send me a note titled 'Joining', clearly state why you would like to join, and then send it. If you would like, and I would appreciate this, put the Suicidally Anonymous icon in your journals each time you submit one. To do that you must:

first make a : <--
then write Icon Suicidally Anonymous after the :
put another : after Anonymous
lastly, delete the space between Icon and Suicidally and between Suicidally and Anonymous.

Thank you for your time, your listening, and curiosity of checking us out, I would like to help and get support so please join if you feel you could make a difference.

Love,
Wednesday Black
The pale veiled child

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***HELP***
I found this AMAZING site, its all about Self-Injury, a huge part of suicide. I live this, and this helped me alot. If you think you need help, read this information first, then seek more help if you feel you need to: [link]

...and thanks to ~FalaFay we have more help!:
1-888-22-VISTA (1-888-22-84782)
and
1-800-DONT-CUT (1-800-3668-28)

Oh and...I have stopped! I no longer cut or think suicidally. Thanks, all of my friends, here and at home, for getting me through everything. Also, our health class back in the spring had a speaker come in and I told her I was a recovered cutter. She told me that if I ever felt like cutting again, which occasionally has happened, though I didn't cut, just take a warm or hot cloth and rub it where you want to cut your skin. It really does help, sure it makes you red but it doesn't leave a visible scar prone to infection and what not.
Also, a tip from a friend--if you are going to cut, at least make it be with something clean. But even better advice--don't.